My angel, my everything, my very self.

– only a few words today, and with a pencil (with yours) – … why this deep grief, where necessity speaks – can our love exist but by sacrifices, by not demanding everything. Can you change it, that you are not completely mine, that I am not completely yours … look upon beautiful Nature and calm your mind about what must be – love demands everything and completely with good reason, that is how it is for me with you, and for you with me – only you forget too easily, that I must live for myself and for you as well, if we were wholly united, you would not feel this as painfully, just as little as I would – my journey was terrible … Esterhazi had … the same problems … now quickly to the interior from the exterior. We will probably see each other soon, only, today I cannot convey to you my observations which I made during these few days about my life … my heart is full with so much to tell you – Oh – There are moments when I feel that language is nothing at all – cheer up – remain my faithful only darling, my everything, as I for you, the rest is up to the Gods, what must be for us and what is in store for us. –

your faithful ludwig –

Monday evening on 6 July – You are suffering, you my dearest creature – only now do I realize … the only days when the mail is delivered to K. – you are suffering – Oh, wherever I am, you are with me, I talk to myself and to you, arrange that I can live with you, what a life!!!! as it is!!!! without you … as much as you love me – I love you even more deeply, but – but never hide yourself from me – Good night … Oh God – so near! so far! Is not our love a true edifice in Heaven – but also as firm as the firmament. –

Good morning on 7 July – while still in bed my thoughts turn towards you my Immortal Beloved, now and then happy, then sad again, waiting whether fate might answer us – I can only live either wholly with you or not at all, yes I have resolved to stray about in the distance, until I can fly into your arms, and send my soul embraced by you into the realm of the Spirits – yes unfortunately it must be – you will compose yourself all the more since you know my faithfulness to you, never can another own my heart, never – never – O God why do I have to separate from someone whom I love so much, and yet my life in Vienna as it is now is a miserable life – Your love makes me at once most happy and most unhappy – at my age I would now need some conformity[,] regularity of my life – can this exist in our relationship? – Angel, … be patient – only through quiet contemplation of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – be calm – love me – today – yesterday – What yearning with tears for you – you – you my life – my everything – farewell – oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your Beloved L.

Forever thine

forever mine

forever us.

(Ludwig van Beethoven, Bohemian spa of Teplitz on 6/7 July 1812, likely never sent)